MyThoughtsAboutIt

First I worried about how difficult it would be to write here, now it’s way way longer than I expected. You really don’t have to read it, if you’re not interested.

I’m just beginning but yeah, I intend to be professional.

I wanna write stories, but not just write. I wanna create them visually. I wanna be able to write both interactive and non-interactive narratives, and I want to develop the concept art for them. I truly want to write for videogames (more specifically horror games) and animation, but I’ve been thinking about manga/comics as an easier/more doable way to start on my own.

This whole DeviantArt thing that I just started is, for me, about expression not skill. That’s what I wanna remember as often as I can. It’s frustrating when I have a million of ideas and can’t execute them because of lack of skills. But then I wanna remember: “well at least I have the ideas, and that matters more”. Of course I wanna improve my skills, but expression is more important. Cause no matter how much I get better, there will always be tons of people that draw and paint and shade and 3D model and program and etc better than me. But there are specific things that only I can express. And I believe it’s that way for everyone. We all have our own perception and perspective of the world. And the specific combinations that make our internal world will always be unique.

And anyway, I’m doing this because if I don’t create I think there’s no point in living. I don’t want to spend my life just “surviving”. I think I either find a way to make this only thing that’s meaningful enough to me happen or I just gotta find a way out of here.

Hugs of encouragement for those who need it.